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12-31-2023
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11-28-2023
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Shouldn't force things to last. shit starts to feeel crusty. 26
11-27-2023
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11-23-2023
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I picked up a habit.
11-02-2023
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11-01-2023
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10-31-2023
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10-26-2023
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10-23-2023
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10-19-2023
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10-13-2023
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10-10-2023
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lolfuck me.
09-12-2023
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08-31-2023
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08-28-2023
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08-17-2023
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I uh try not to think about death as often. There's a lot of things I try not to dwell on. But for a while I've beeen thinking of what would happen if something were to happen before I put my project(s) out. What if this site, these drafts, these entries or whatever were the last thing someone would see from me. My last offering. This thing I was using to also help build up what I really wanted to put into the atmosphere suddenly takes a life of its own. It's no longer just doof drafts. This is what I leave behind. And I think subconsciously that's beeen in the back of my head when I dropped these entry points. *warmembraces* That this could be the last statment.
I also think of what state I would be in. Did I do enough? Do I see enough? Can I say I was deserving of this or that? Was the love I had enough? Was I just never deserving to find that special type of love? *warmembraces* Was I able to put a smile on everone's face? And I guess more in a physical sense. I'm rambling on again like I have no one to talk to./
Blueberries on a Sunday 'Noon
07-08-2023
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06-26-2023
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Ayy man. It’s been a week since Father’s Day and I have not gotten a single Father’s Day message. I haven’t been carrying my son, feeding him, bathing him, taking him to the park, and just spending time with him to not be considered Father of the Year. I’ve lost him a few times but ya know sons need some character. I’m sure he loves me as much as I love him. Any ways I don’t need y’all bitches to acknowledge my fatherhood. Just know CowBabii would beat anyone of y’all asses.I put that on my son.
06-23-2023
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06-19-2023
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06-17-2023
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06-14-2023
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06-08-2023
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I Pimped Out my feeelings yall!
Are yall mad at me?
06-02-2023
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05-30-2023
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I picked up a habit.
05-23-2023
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05-22-2023
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05-16-2023
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I was aiming for a May release date. By January I knew it wasn't possible. And by that I mean I knew I wouldn't make it possible. I don't have much to show. I don't have an excuse. I'm just a lazy fuck haha. Almost halfway through this year. And I can't say I am half way through this project. Beeen realzing I've tried to tackle too many big things at once. As a result, I have felt STAGNATED. I don't think I have much time left. End of summer, calling it now. If not, then fuck me.
05-13-2023
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05-11-2023
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05-01-2023
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04-30-2023
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March 2021
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04-25-2023
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04-24-2023
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I'm scared
2021
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04-11-2023
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04-09-2023
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03-29-2023
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02-19-2023
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WELCOME TO DOOF DRAFTS
02-18-2023
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02-16-2023
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02-15-2023
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02-14-2023
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02-13-2023
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01-30-2023
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01-24-2023
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01-22-2023
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I picked up a habit.
01-14-2023
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01-13-2023
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01-05-2023
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01-03-2023
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01-01-2023
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12-31-2022
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12-29-2022
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12-28-2022
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12-27-2022
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12-26-2022
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12-25-2022
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happy WLR Day
12-24-2022
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12-19-2022
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Smh
12-13-2022
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12-12-2022
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10-22-2020
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12-05-2022
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12-04-2022
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11-30-2022
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11-27-2022
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11-26-2022
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11-25-2020
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hopefully ig puts it back up one day.
11-24-2022
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11-22-2022
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11-21-2022
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11-16-2022
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11-11-2022
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11-10-2022
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11-09-2022
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11-08-2022
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11-06-2022
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ITS THRILLER BITCH
10-28-2022
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10-12-2022
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10-11-2022
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09-21-2022
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It's almost 4am and im having a solo party in mah rooom
09-15-2022
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09-14-2022
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Wrap yourself around meeeeeeeee!
09-08-2022
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08-31-2022
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08-17-2022
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08-16-2022
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08-15-2022
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08-14-2022
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mardi gras
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Two degrees - two days ago.
None of this is settling in. Feeelings of freedom(?) yet unfulfilment. Going to enjoy this month but not get too consumed in fcdcfdvog. To be fucken real, I'm on the clock. There's no freedom. Just wanna feeel like this was worth it. Glad these past few days flew by. I'm starting to get my head out the dirt. Feeels like I can move on to something different. These next few months may be something. maybe not. I don't know. There hasn't been an excuse. I neeed this time. 6 years. 6 fucken years. Can't say I always enjoyed being there. But that place did held weight to where I am now. And honestly, it feeels like it hasn't been that long. But now I can get into what I want for myself.
I picked up a habit.
08-01-2022
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07-28-2022
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07-27-2022
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07-26-2022
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Thank yu, Stone.
07-25-2022
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The feeeling comes and goes. I shouldn't complain so much. Grateful. Figuring shit out. I don't neeed help, I'll be just fine. - the doofster
07-24-2022
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07-22-2022
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07-21-2022
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07-18-2022
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07-27-2021
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State hopping for the time first last summer. Texas, New York, Cali. This photo is from driving up a mountain in a Tesla (boujee, yes). This trip was special. Taught me I could be anywhere but here.
07-16-2022
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I picked up a habit.
07-13-2022
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07-10-2022
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07-04-2022
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06-30-2022
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06-10-2022
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I picked up a habit.
06-05-2022
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think of it as a trailer or some shit
06-02-2022
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the doofster
05-29-2022
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02-12or13-2022
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05-24-2022
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05-22-2022
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05-20-2022
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sup niggas
05-10-2022
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05-01-2021/2022
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04-26-2022
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04-18-2022
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I tried 2 get to you.
04-12-2022
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04-11-2022
pussy lips
04-10-2022
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04-08-2022
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sometime in october, - 2021
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There --- --- ambience ---. In a room of denail, the --- wouldn't go away. I was in a --- --- that I knew wasn't --- me. My --- were made with --- was in --- head. Denial of --- around me. Only --- --- felt real --- the walls.
React. The --- atmosphere --- me --- --- I wasn't --- for.
--- a room --- Acceptance, I ---- wanted to ---- a scream. All I --- was --- thick air --- me. --- would pop up --- and then. --- --- brightness. --- was --- on ---.
The clouds felt heavy.
--- voices --- to grow but --- from --- --- in the ---. I look --- to --- everyone --- to the floor. I --- lifted --- to be --- down again. The sun --- --- my face. I --- the undertones. Everything was ---. Body --- to the clouds. I --- to accept this.
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